Keep Moving Forward

There’s a quote in Disney’s “Meet The Robinsons” that Cornelius, the genius inventor who has built this amazing city, swears by:

“Keep moving forward!”

The entire source of these three quotes are revealed by the end of the movie as something Walt Disney said:

“Around here, however, we don’t look backwards for very long. We keep moving forward, opening up new doors and doing new things, because we’re curious… and curiosity keeps leading us down new paths.”

I’ve had this quote popping up at random moments this month. I mean, when I actually think about it, it hasn’t been all that horrible, but it’s definitely been a weird mental trip.

My father’s business closed as of December 31, 2017, and emotions have definitely been up and down for mom and I as we adapted to retired life. For me, that means financially I have to 100% stand on my own two feet–which I’m quite capable of doing–but, in lieu of Dan and I getting married, I have been worrying about our combined future and everything that comes with it.

Which is pretty stupid when you get right down to it.

Now, let me explain. It’s great to plan and be mindful of the future, to work hard so you  prevent trouble as much as you can. But I was worrying to the extent of it causing me panic attacks! I was worrying more about the future–about Dan and my mother’s happiness–than celebrating my completion of a bookkeeping course, or successfully applying and pursuing jobs.

I talked to my friend about my anxiety and she labeled part of it as “impostor syndrome,” which is not entirely inaccurate. Basically, I’m not internalizing my accomplishments and am fearing failure despite all my hard work. In short, being a fraud. It’s an illogical thing to happen; my doubter calling me out,  saying “you’re going to lose no matter what you do.”

I’m proud to say that once my friend pointed out what my brain was doing, I’ve since issued an eviction notice to the Doubter. He’s no longer welcome in my life and will be vacating soon.

All the goals I’m pursing, this 2018, are well on their ways to being accomplished:
1. Become financially stable; whether it’s by creating a business, getting an additional job, or some combination of both.
2. Lose weight by Dan and I’s wedding; I’m already 10 pounds down, 40 more to go!
3. Finish current draft of novel by March, have my completed book circulating to agents by Dan and I’s wedding.

I will not give up. I will not give in.

Always keep fighting.

And keep moving forward.

Happy 2018!

May all of you celebrate the new year in your own ways, whether it’s playing board games with family while the ball drops, or cheering with the crowd at Times Square! Just don’t forget to be responsible!

Have a happy, blessed 2018! May all your hard work be rewarded, your troubles be few, and may you be surrounded by friends and family who love you for every bit of who you are!

See you in the next year!

Star Wars: The Last Jedi (SPOILERS)

***If you care about Star Wars: The Last Jedi spoilersdo not continue reading until you see the movie! ** Then, of course, by all means, read on and discuss your opinions about the movie in the comments below!


So the fiancee pointed out to me that the Rotten Tomatoes ratings for Star Wars: The Last Jedi keeps dropping! Hah! I can kind of guess why! And it has to to with one little thing: Rey’s parentage.

Now, hear me out. I’m not saying the latest Star Wars movie is horrible–it’s actually pretty good–but there’s one scene that my inner writer keeps nagging about, and it has to do with one lovely tool: CONTINUITY.

God, I cannot tell you how much I despise continuity errors. Especially those, I think, that mess up the story line in favor of the director’s personal bias. According to my fiancee, who is usually on to something, (You’re welcome for that shout out, dear!) Rian Johnson tends to aim away from legacies and lineage in his stories. Now, I’m not going to say that’s 100% the case, because, as humans, we tend to oversimplify things. But I definitely think it’s not helping Star Wars: The Last Jedi.

*MAJOR SPOILER* 

About halfway through the movie, Rey “finds out” who were parents were from Kylo Ren himself. (I say “finds out” because there’s still a little part of me that thinks Kylo is lying, even if Ryan Johnson says he isn’t. “He believes it’s the truth,” is his exact quote.) Rey’s parents are–duh, duh, duhhh–“Nobodies.”

Plot twist of all plot twists!! And I’m completely torn about it!

I mean, it’s kind of cool that The Last Jedi apparently cancels out that Jedis can come from a specific line; that anyone can become a Jedi! It’s something that gives every Star Wars fan hope: that even the lowest person out there can develop superpowers!

But wait–hang on–this puts a severe dent in Star Wars’s continuity. What about that stuff regarding the midichlorians in the prequels? Midichlorians only come through specific bloodlines. It’s the reason why the original trilogy only lets Luke and Leia have powers; because they’re Anakin’s children.

So how can Rey have superpowers, if her parents were nobodies; junk traders who sold her for a bit of drink money?

Now I have full faith in the Star Wars franchise. Star Wars doesn’t deliver something so simple with a question this big. Really, I don’t think Rey’s parents were really nobodies. I think there’s more to the story. On a basic level, her parents being junk traders is too simple an answer; frankly, if it is the truth, I would be really upset, because I’d feel like the writers and Johnson didn’t really give it too much thought and just caved. And, from the backlash that has cried out over the internet, I bet a lot of you fellow Star Wars fans are feeling the same way.

Me? I’m still hoping Rey is a Kenobi. Maybe she’s a grandchild of old Ben.

What are your theories about Rey’s parentage in Star Wars: The Last Jedi? Do you think her parents really are junk traders? Or are the movies trying to build up to something?

Comment below!

NaNoWriMo HAS BEGUN!

“You write. That’s the hard bit that nobody sees. You write on the good days and you write on the lousy days. Like a shark, you have to keep moving forward or you die… What matters right now are the words, one after another. Find the next word. Write it down. Repeat. Repeat. Repeat.”
– NaNoWriMo’s Pep Talk from Neil Gaiman.


It’s here, writers! NaNoWriMo is here!

It’s the time of the year where we focus our creative energies more than we ever did before; we flip open our journals and scribble, we power on our computers and clack away. Dust off those novels that are hidden in your desk drawers!

National Novel Writing Month is here!

For those who are new to the month-long writing fest, here’s the basic rule: write 50,000 words by December 1st. (It’s basically the size of a novella, or small novel.)

Here are my personal goals:
1. Accomplish editing my novel beyond chapter 7.
2. Churn out 50,000 words for the latter chapters.
3. RULE at managing my time; fit in some amount of writing every day!

These are the things I have been needing to work on most with my novel. I need to get my butt in my chair, every single day, and finish this storyline! It’s so strong in my mind, I need it strong on paper now!

By God, I am going to do this! 

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Good luck to all writers participating in NaNoWriMo this month, whether through the website or by yourselves! (Website is here, for those interested: NaNoWriMo.com )

Comment below what you’ll be working on this month!

A Story About Spirits

“It has been a difficult week.”

It seems that those words have left my mouth much too often the past few years; there have been a lot of struggles, whether it be through deaths, life changes, concerns for the future… the list really is endless.

This Tuesday marks the week anniversary of Sir William Oliver’s passing. He was our last Golden Retriever of a long line of five dogs. (His legacy will be carried on through Brutus, who is adored by his human, my cousin Jon.) I realized, though, that this was the first time in my life there hasn’t been a canine in my household. It’s a sad thing; no more large scampering paws on tile floor, random barking that signals a potty break, or trying to navigate the kitchen without plummeting to the floor due to the sleeping body right in front of the refrigerator.

I know it’ll be a long time before I have another dog in my life. Our Goldens were just that: golden. They were loving dogs that never asked for anything in return, but we gave it to them because they were a part of our hearts. Yes, there was the random annoyance of cleaning deer poop out of their hair after they romped through the woods, and poison ivy was always a possible side-effect of their hugs, but we did it anyways because we loved them with all our hearts.

It’s been a week and I seem to be coming out of my mourning; instead I am celebrating the lives of Scuttle, Goldie, Jewel, Baby, and Oliver that touched us deeply. They are no longer suffering. Instead, they’re on the other side, their presence always around us, supporting us, loving us, being there when we cry.

If we listen quietly, we can witness their spirits thriving–feel their breaths on our face, hear their scampering paws, and, for a split moment, try to catch ourselves as we almost trip, seeing, for a moment, a large golden body lying on kitchen floor in front of the refrigerator.

Our loved ones are never gone. They’re in the reality that we will, one day, reach as well. This life is temporary and, sometimes, full of pain. But it’s also filled with blessings; furry, fuzzy, human, canine, feline, or other joys that make this journey magical.

Love makes life worthwhile.  It’s why we’re here; to learn, to love, to try, to fail, to get back up again. Love is God, the Creator, the source of the Universe.

I love you, Sir William Oliver. Say hi to the gang and tell them I love them all. And I will try to love others, as you so selflessly loved me.

Rest. In peace.

A Quick Autumn Catch-Up

Hello, all those out there on the interwebs and happy First Day of Autumn! It truly has been a long time since I’ve written on this blog, and I’ve definitely missed it! Things have been crazy; as I mentioned in “OSR 2017, Amongst Other Things!” the boyfriend has now turned fiancee!

YES! I KNOW! 

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Truly, truly, it is a nutty, but good time! Frankly, I never knew how complicated planning a wedding could be, especially when I’m trying to launch my writing and bookkeeping careers! Lordy!

Furthermore, there are some things in the works–wedding and random–that will be life changing by the end of the year. I truly pray they work out for the best.

Speaking of writing, I am very pleased with how my technique is progressing, even if life tends to keep me from my office more than I’d like. There are some really good, concrete things happening in my novel and I do hope to be sharing it with you, soon! (Alas, if only money wasn’t an issue; I would write full-time in my pajamas and get my book out there faster! Wouldn’t that be wonderful?)

So, not that I’m trying to make excuses, but I adore you, dear readers, and I don’t want you to even imagine that I might’ve abandoned you all. I will see you soon. The next blog post won’t be too far off!

Have a happy, cool, crisp Fall, one and all!

I’M LOOKING FORWARD TO WEARING MY SWEATERS AGAIN!

 

OSR 2017, Amongst Other Things!

I will tell you: things are so chaotic right now, I feel like I can’t catch up! Honestly, part of a reason for this is because I was sick this week, but it was worth it because my longtime boyfriend Dan and I got ENGAGED!! (Funny story: we found out later that he exposed me to a cold and here we are!)

So… A thing happened today!!! #engaged #bfturnedfiance #thefutureisbeautiful

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Yes! We did!! My mind is in a mix of rejoicing and daydreaming about our near-future lives as newlyweds.

However, I have so many things going on before we take our vows next year: working on my career, losing the rest of my weight, and other things.

One of those “other things” is attending Ideal Event’s gathering at Ohio State Reformatory this weekend. I’m honestly excited to experience the haunted prison at a different time of the year (the previous three events there have been held in May, not August). I expect the vibes will be awesomely different for multiple reasons.

First off, it’ll be close to fall, which is always the time of year I feel more energized, both physically and spiritually. Second, because of this, the event will be taking place a month before the prison shuts down for their annual haunted house–this year dubbed “Escape from Blood Prison!” Personally, I’m wondering if it’ll have an affect on the ghosties or not. Surely, because there are some intelligent haunts, it’s possible they could pick up on the change of seasons? Who knows. The experience will tell!

All in all, I’m excited to see what will happen. I’m especially excited to be investigating with Steve Gonsalves and Dave Tango again–although I am a little curious as to why they were the only celebs that came back this year.

HOWEVER, in addition to their awesome selves, we will also get a lecture about the history of the Ohio State Reformatory! I’m very giddy about that as well; even though I’ve researched a lot into the infamous prison, I still want to see if I’ll learn something else!

We’ll see how the night goes. See you all soon!


Author’s Update:

There will be more to come on this blog soon. I’ve backed off on a few things–like Media Mondays over on my YouTube channel and my fanfiction releases–so that I can focus more heavily on my writing career, especially the novel I’m itching to complete, but this blog is not one of those. I’m aiming to release a new blog post around the 1st and 15th day of every month.

For more, check out my Youtube video where I talk about the tough decision of backing off on my fanfics and reviews:

Thank you all for your support and see you next time! *blows kiss*

Writer. Fangirl. Wonderer.

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